Life Long Learning

I was excited to get another one of these purple sweet potatoes in my box this week!  They are actually not that sweet but they do have this really hearty, starchy texture which I love.  It sort of breaks up the tremendous amount of Green that I get, which I love, but I also like starchy things too.  And if they are super colorful, even better!

I’ve been doing some R&D in the kitchen this week but not as much as usual.  As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I’m taking a permaculture design class and we only have one month left before we present our group project.  I have an amazing team of people that I’m working with which makes it so much more enjoyable but I am still feeling stressed and anxious and it’s taking me back to my younger days when I was a full time student.  There was always some project, paper or exam looming overhead and while I liked learning a lot, I wasn’t a big fan of the crush of the final deliverable.

I’m no longer a full time student but I am a life long learner so those days are not behind me.  Here I am, with a full time job, this blog, family and friends and the wonderful commitments that go with those gifts and I’m still signing up for more.  I will probably always be taking some class or another which means there is always something looming overhead.  The difference now is that I get to choose in and decide how much I am going to take on and I can take as many breaks in between as I want for as long as I want.  Even though I sign up for this shit and know exactly what I’m getting myself into I still hate it sometimes.  This final part where we really have to push to deliver something is always the part where I think to myself “Why did I sign up for this?!?!?!  Why do I keep doing this to myself?!?!?”  I take comfort in knowing that when it’s done I will look back fondly forgetting how this moment right now feels because I will be so filled with a sense of accomplishment and pride.  And in the glow of that moment I will sign up for something else.

Yes, there are parts that suck but the rewards always outweigh the sacrifices and that will be my mantra for the next month until we cross the finish line and present our project.  And then I will relax for a few days or maybe even a week and then I’m sure I’ll find something else to fill my plate with because I’m sort of addicted to these feelings!